Now for Tahlia

Well not much has changed, she still only sleeps a MAX of 2, 20 to 40min sleeps a day and that's if I'm lucky. We have had a pretty rotten last week with lots of next to sleepless nights and one very unhappy little girl. I sure hope it's teeth as something is up. She has the bright red cheeks, slight temps and could gobble down a rusk in no time, literally.

On a good note, she is gaining weight very well and has now passed the 10th percentile bar. As normal with our kids her head is normal and on the 50th. She sits now very confidently but has no interest still in her tummy time and crawling.

3 good meals a day now brekkie, cereal and fruit, lunch fruit and yogurt and dinner pumpkin and then custard. She has 5 breast feeds (one being overnight), but manages to usually skip one over the day as much as i try.

I love her to pieces, but goodness gracious me, she is hard work!!!!

Some scrapping bits

I made this for Jared's B'day, he just loves it and so far so good at him looking after it.

A circle journal with the theme inspiration, under each cloud i have written more.

Another circle journal with the theme of fav holiday.

Happy 4th Birthday Jarry!!!

Dad pumping up his plane.

My first attempt at cake decorating, it's a hedgehog bum you can see.




Hot wheels track.




Spiderman puzzle.



Remote control spiderman car from Nanny and Pa.

Jared had a great day from beginning to end. We had a small Macca's party and he has been spoilt rotten.

So how am i going 'now'?

I have been asked this a bit lately, so i thought i would try and sum it all up here.

Definitely still good and bad days. It's hard not getting upset when I'm doing the 10th lap around my house with an unsettled baby. I think the better things are generally, the better i feel about everything. I guess everyone is like that. The two hours i was waiting to hear how Dad went with his operation, were really worrying for me. At the time, in my philosophical way was thinking...i feel like a smashed pain of glass, that has finally had all the pieces picked up and slowly put back together, but I'm still very fragile, please don't add any extra pressure

Friends tend to think it will be upsetting for me to see kids the same age as Kalen should be, but i find it the opposite. It helps me to imagine what he would be up to, as this is something i find hard to do.

It's still very important to me to include Kalen in the answer to the question, How many kids do you have now? Catching up with old friends from old social circles, i just have to tell them when the subject of family comes up.

Reading the monthly SIDS newsletters breaks me up everytime and takes me right back to the original pain. Reading stories of others is like a sad addiction, as depressing as they are, it's also nice to know you aren't the only one.

Music, as it does, also brings back memories, obviously Creed's With arm's wide open, but also 'Forever young' and 'Seen better days' by Pete Murray.

Tamika is still doing her "Seasons for growth" course through the school and i was happily surprised to find out there are 2 other boys in her class doing it too. I never wanted her to singled out with all this and it makes it more comforting to know others are with her from her class.

Scrapping my scraps....

These are my challenges from the weekend workshop at Blumar's!! Rumour has it i won the the book mark one, Yay for me. So i once again i refrained from scrap shopping and got by with what i had. The baby card is for Bianca.

What's been happening

Dad had his operation last week and is now home recovering. He was originally to stay in hospital 8 nights but left after 7, so that has to be a good sign. The day of his operation was a bit stressful as he he didn't come out of recovery till 5.30pm and we were told to expect 3.30pm. So looking back now it has been a big week, escpecially going to see him everyday.

Mini little drama with preschool of late, and that is with them putting Jared to sleep. He hasn't had day sleeps in nearly 2 years and may be going to school next year. Lately he has been coming home after preschool and not getting to sleep till 8ish, which is a far cry from their normal 6.15pm bedtime. Anyways we'll deal with that.

Tamika is going great and received her second merit award last week. Even more exciting though, is we are going to move her into the spare room. Ian suggested it, but i always thought we should have it as a spare room for his parents. So we'll talk to them and explain they can still stay and sleep in our room, but they do tend to bring the caravan down most the time now. So i'm off to set up her room now, Ian has already made her a new toy box and i bought her a bed canopy today off ebay.

Jared is cruising along, and sort of trying to keep out of trouble. Went to the shops the other day to get lollies for his party bags and he finds a sword (about a metre long and very well decked out in plastic) in a garbage bin on our way out. Trust the guy at the register to say it was ok for him to have it. Spent the next hour grocery shopping explaining to freaked out people that i DID NOT give it to him.

What a weekend....

Things really started Thursday, with very heavy rain. The afternoon cleared up, so off i trot to school to pick up Tamika and by the time i left school it was teeming down again, 3 kids and no umbrella, Tamika had her raincoat luckily. I put Tahlia in my jumper with her head out my neck hole too and just told Jared to run. We were saturated!!!!

Power went out Friday afternoon till Saturday afternoon, them back off that evening till Monday afternoon. Nearly 72hrs we went without power accept for a few hours Saturday night. It was horrible, but i don't want to complain as our house is fine as we all are, so that's the main thing. The devastation has been incredible, we were blocked in the first morning with a tree covering the road, and just over the hill a tree has crushed a caravan in someones driveway. If there had been anyone in it, they wouldn't have had a chance. With all the trees above us here, we were so lucky! Water came up to our backdoor Sunday morning, but didn't come in. We lost some food, but that's nothing.

I did a few trips to my sisters for bathing, washing and hot meals, but that wasn't till Sunday when she got her power back. Ian worked 3 12 hr days, as most other techs had their own house problems, then a half day on his only day off yesterday and is now working till 8pm tonight. He is buggered!!!

The kids were pretty good considering. Poor Jared still doesn't get along to well with the dark so he woke a few times crying during the night. He was pretty excited last night when we told him that his fishy light would work ALL night. Tamika was suppose to sleep at my sisters Saturday night but got the tears and Ian ended up picking her up at 8.30pm at night. Not sure what that was all about, she has slept overe there regularly since she was 2, but she will be getting stern words next sleep over about being picked up.

One yuck thing that also came from the blackouts was i was getting headaches. I can only put it down to the low light levels and stress, but thankfully they are all gone today.

More scrapping...

This is my LO for Jodi's cj, 'fashion failures'. There is journelling under the tags highlighting all the great fashion ideas mum had.

This is my entry for Blumars monthly challenge. The theme is travel, so that cut down my options to our one holiday, lol.

A new chapter now

Tahlia is now 2 days older than Kalen was when he died. Although it is hard, as i am taking photo's very similar to the last ones i have of Kalen and everything Tahlia does seems to be a reminder, but something in my head is now just a bit more relaxed.